Its 2013. Just saw some fireworks far away from outside my sister's house... and i went YAY YAY YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY.. Fireworks always makes me happy. The simpliest of things that costs a bundle to burn that usually brings smiles to many.
A time to reflect on a year gone by... a year that went by too fast for me and too slow for the suffering and the sick.
Exactly a year ago at this same day, we were parked triple park on a busy highway.. watching fireworks with my closest friends. The same day that my closest friend show us a picture of the thing that screwed up her entire 2012. She's still with us... a bag of bones. Hardly even half of what she used to be. But she made it to 2013.
Because of her, i stopped and finally worked on what i liked and what i loved. I stopped worrying about what people would think and build up more courage to fight for myself. Its been quite a hard year for my colleagues to work with me because i did not gave in to silly beings anymore. I stopped keeping appearances with people that i don't want to see too. Its been a year of reflection and it is also my most fruitful year. A year of being able to use my skills and time to help others. Though i am not getting any richer in assets and $$$... my heart is finally full.
I've been away from home since 13th December. Been in Kuala Lumpur to be with Piper while his mommy and daddy took Grandpa to see Sarubobo. Days of spending time with just Piper and Dom and having conversations only with animals.. *LOL* Days of picking poo and still picking poo. Why do two dogs have so much to poo. Its been a good holiday so far.
Met up with one of my blogger friend again yesterday afternoon. Its been nice to see Nessa and her hubby again after one year. They have both had a very fruitful year... and both have become crazy running fanatics now. They are leading healthier lives. Both just grin non stop the whole time. Nessa has taught me that anything is possible if you work really hard at it.
One of the highlights of this trip is going for the Big Bad Wolf book sale. Every year i seem to miss it but finally made it this year with my niece. Bought a boxful of books which will keep me occupied for a whole year. I am a hoarder of books. :)
What would 2013 be like? I do not know yet... but i will work harder at being a better human. I got tons of ideas "ruining" my head. Purging it one by one would be a problem as i do not know where to start.
Its going to be a good year.
For the sick and the suffering, i wish for them less pain and a peaceful heart.
For the ones that have too much and am still not happy, kick yourself in the butt and get happy.
Time is a priceless commodity. Just make sure the moments count. Nothing else matters much.
I've been spending a few afternoons with my friend at the clinic while she is having her treatment. I do not know if this treatment will help her in any way as the cancer has gone too far. Each day i do not know what to expect when i see her. But knowing that the power of touch helps her in some way, that is the only thing i know how to do. I can only hold her hand and put on my calmest face and tell her its going to be alright. Her screams of pain when the needles go in, what do i know of her pain.
She tells me she is very scared. Her heart beats very fast. Her mind goes wild at night. She cannot sleep much. Her voice is almost like a whisper as she is breathless and too weak even to form some words. We manage to sign and understand each other.
Support for the dying is very important. They fear death and who doesn't. Even if i tell you i don't fear death, i would be telling you a very big lie. I will fear pain and i will fear being alone if i am dying and on death bed.
We begin to question God... why do you let someone be in so much pain? Why do you not take her home quick? Is it the burdens she has to bear for all that she has done. Forgive her sins and just take her home. And perhaps God will answer... so now you believe in me?
I am not a very religious person. I don't go to church to pray and neither do i go to the temple. I have conversations with the man up there sometimes in my mind. I feel overwhelmed in churches. The songs make me cry sometimes. Maybe my tears are just too much and they have no where to go.
We do not know what tomorrow brings but the sun will still shine and everything will be alright. A Happy New Year to all of you... and May the New Year brings with it loads of goodness to each and everyone of you. To my dearest friend Kristin and Pip... May the new year be kinder to you both. Hang in there lil Pip. I do not know when i'll get to all of your blogs... but slowly and surely i will. Thank you all for your friendship and your kind words.
P/S: This is a pictureless post as i am just too lazy to hook up the wires and download the pictures i took of Mr P and Dommy. Perhaps... on the next post.
Showing posts with label Series of Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Series of Thoughts. Show all posts
- I had two bananas for lunch and now i am feeling like a monkey.
- Go hang upside down from the fan my colleague says.
- Does eating too much vegetables make you feel like a rabbit?
- Why is a dutch oven called an oven when its a pot?
- The rain is trying to be funny with me today.
- Running out as fast as my stick legs can carry me to fetch the laundry is not easy if your furry friend tries to run just as fast beside you while thinking its a game.
- Some people cannot sleep without their dutch wives.
- Spongebob is annoyingly funny.
- Its so warm here that trying to work is NOT an option anymore.
- Rain is still trying to be funny with me.
- Maybe i should become a bat and work at night instead while hiding under the bed with Dom during the day.
- I think Dom has a special fur-growth formula that works. He is a furry monster again. Any hair-growth companies that is interested in this fur-growth can contact Dom @ Piper Kingdom.
- Annoying vans with speakers that play annoying songs that sends some dogs howling are making their rounds.
- Be nice to the people that come by to take the census. Our country is doing the census this month and all the folks around here are too afraid to open their doors to strangers. *LOL*
- Don't sc**w with me rain or i'll i'll i'll...
A series of thoughts.. hehhehee.. yea yea.. it will be a super long post since i have not been posting for quite a while. Brace yourself if you are/would be reading on :)
Firstly...
Mother's Day... i am late for my Mother's Day post but here's wishing all mommies out there a Wonderful Happy Mother's Day. Hope all of you have had a great one with your loved ones yesterday.
Oh... my godson the Mr Jaiboo bought me a pair of blue shoes for Mother's Day. It is a lovely blue and the kind of shoes that i usually am in. He sure have good taste considering that he's just 1+ *lol*
If i am never to be a mother in this life, i am still very much blessed with lotta children in my life. Even today i have a kid with me. I had to poke her face a couple of times to wake her up for school... hahhahahaa.. She is a very down to earth girl. Very well balanced and always friendly. Her mother has taught her well. I sent her off to school and picked up another kid... *LOL* My sister's kids are almost like my kids. They are always with me.
Boy went off to matriculation college today in another state. His parents and my father sent him off this morning. With a heavy heart, i said goodbye to him yesterday. He is almost like my son for three years. He tells me almost anything and everything. I have pampered him and given him whatever that i could give him without spoiling him too much. But he is always a good kid. Humble and never wasteful. He never asks for things but will secretly smile with joy when we get it for him. He's hardworking and quite shy. He's not quite ready for the world yet but he has to go out there and fend for himself one day. And the one day is now.. today.
From today, he has to do his own laundry, buy his own food.. wake up on his own (which i doubt he can) hahahahaa but i know he will survive and be a more independent person in a year from now. Sometimes when we keep them near to us, they will never grow up. They will always be dependent. They will fall and they will cry, but they will learn that love is always at home. They will learn to appreciate the ones at home more.
I remember my mom telling me, go.. go out and see the world. I went and was very happy to be free to do whatever i want for the first time. It was a joyous feeling at first. And slowly day by day, i miss my mom a lot. Each day, i'll collect all the coins so that i can call my mom on the payphone (we didn't have mobile phones back then). Sometimes i have to walk very far to find a payphone that work. Each time i hear her voice, i'll come back to my room and cry. Each month, i'll take the bus back to see her. What joyful weekends that were. Mom will cook all my favourite dishes.. and when Sunday comes, i'll have to leave again with a heavy heart.
I am sure Boy is tossing and turning in bed right now thinking about home. He has to share a room with three total strangers who will probably be his good buddies in a few weeks time. He'll learn to adapt and enjoy life in college. He'll also learn not to mix whites with dark colored clothes to wash... *LOL* He's a tough kid. Quiet on the outside but he quite strong on the inside.
In a few more days, my sister and i are taking my dad for holiday. We are going off to see Billy. This year is a year of travelling for my dad. This is his third holiday and its only May.. hahhahaa.. His brothers and sisters are almost envious of him. They haven't seen much of him this year.
He will be 70 soon. My father loves to travel. My mom, never like to travel. Everywhere we take her, she will tell us that it is the same. She only loves to be at home. But i am sure she will be with us in spirit when we take dad to his next holiday destination.
Dommy and Mr Piper will have to be checked into the pet "hotel". Hope they will have a wonderful time away from us and make some friends too while they are taking their break. Dom is like the extention of me. He tails me everywhere. When i go to the loo, he'll even get up from his snooze and get himself parked outside the toilet door. When i am working, he is parked right beside me. I should be quite thankful for such devoted companionship. And only a dog or a Dom could be that.
I'll end this post with a picture i took a few weeks back.
If you look closely, you will see a pair of tiny feet on top of an adult feet. My friend's son was so afraid of the sand getting in between his toes. It was his first time at the beach. He was standing on top of his mother's feet for quite a while before we finally coaxed him to come down. He only trusted his mother and his world was at his mother's feet. It also tells how grand a mother's love is.
Firstly...
Their baby boy Ash came into this world on Mother's Day. I bet Bain will be a great 24/7 daddy and won't have much time to blog anymore. May you both enjoy your blessing. I am sure Ash will fill up all your hours and your days but the journey will be a wonderful one.Congratulations to Bain and Myra.
Mother's Day... i am late for my Mother's Day post but here's wishing all mommies out there a Wonderful Happy Mother's Day. Hope all of you have had a great one with your loved ones yesterday.
Oh... my godson the Mr Jaiboo bought me a pair of blue shoes for Mother's Day. It is a lovely blue and the kind of shoes that i usually am in. He sure have good taste considering that he's just 1+ *lol*
bluey from jaiboo
If i am never to be a mother in this life, i am still very much blessed with lotta children in my life. Even today i have a kid with me. I had to poke her face a couple of times to wake her up for school... hahhahahaa.. She is a very down to earth girl. Very well balanced and always friendly. Her mother has taught her well. I sent her off to school and picked up another kid... *LOL* My sister's kids are almost like my kids. They are always with me.
Boy went off to matriculation college today in another state. His parents and my father sent him off this morning. With a heavy heart, i said goodbye to him yesterday. He is almost like my son for three years. He tells me almost anything and everything. I have pampered him and given him whatever that i could give him without spoiling him too much. But he is always a good kid. Humble and never wasteful. He never asks for things but will secretly smile with joy when we get it for him. He's hardworking and quite shy. He's not quite ready for the world yet but he has to go out there and fend for himself one day. And the one day is now.. today.
From today, he has to do his own laundry, buy his own food.. wake up on his own (which i doubt he can) hahahahaa but i know he will survive and be a more independent person in a year from now. Sometimes when we keep them near to us, they will never grow up. They will always be dependent. They will fall and they will cry, but they will learn that love is always at home. They will learn to appreciate the ones at home more.
I remember my mom telling me, go.. go out and see the world. I went and was very happy to be free to do whatever i want for the first time. It was a joyous feeling at first. And slowly day by day, i miss my mom a lot. Each day, i'll collect all the coins so that i can call my mom on the payphone (we didn't have mobile phones back then). Sometimes i have to walk very far to find a payphone that work. Each time i hear her voice, i'll come back to my room and cry. Each month, i'll take the bus back to see her. What joyful weekends that were. Mom will cook all my favourite dishes.. and when Sunday comes, i'll have to leave again with a heavy heart.
I am sure Boy is tossing and turning in bed right now thinking about home. He has to share a room with three total strangers who will probably be his good buddies in a few weeks time. He'll learn to adapt and enjoy life in college. He'll also learn not to mix whites with dark colored clothes to wash... *LOL* He's a tough kid. Quiet on the outside but he quite strong on the inside.
In a few more days, my sister and i are taking my dad for holiday. We are going off to see Billy. This year is a year of travelling for my dad. This is his third holiday and its only May.. hahhahaa.. His brothers and sisters are almost envious of him. They haven't seen much of him this year.
He will be 70 soon. My father loves to travel. My mom, never like to travel. Everywhere we take her, she will tell us that it is the same. She only loves to be at home. But i am sure she will be with us in spirit when we take dad to his next holiday destination.
Dommy and Mr Piper will have to be checked into the pet "hotel". Hope they will have a wonderful time away from us and make some friends too while they are taking their break. Dom is like the extention of me. He tails me everywhere. When i go to the loo, he'll even get up from his snooze and get himself parked outside the toilet door. When i am working, he is parked right beside me. I should be quite thankful for such devoted companionship. And only a dog or a Dom could be that.
I'll end this post with a picture i took a few weeks back.
Mother's love is deeper than ocean
Mother's lesson is bigger than the sky,
Mother's lap is more comfortable than the warm bed
Mother's tale is better than the best novel on this earth,
Mother's picture is more beautiful than a fascinating scenery
Mother's blessings are more powerful than the thousands of seas
Mother's shade is cooler than the shade of heavy laden trees,
Mother's light is brighter than the sun,
Mother's role is seventy times greater than the father,
Mother's place is more sacred than any shrine
Scenario 1
You love chocolate. You love chocolate so much that you bought yourself a big chocolate cake. A bigggggg chocolate cake it is. You cut a piece and indulge.
*ting tong* (the door bell rings)
You have chocolate all on your lips and in your mouth. You hate the break in momentum when you are indulging in your feast. You peek at the peephole. Shoot! Its the nosy neighbours next door.
You hide your cake quickly. This is my cake. I am not going to share it with some nosy neighbours.
You wipe your mouth quickly and erase any evidence of the chocolate. You open the door and awoo awoo and an exchange of pleasantries. Awooo awoooo... and a whole of lot of chatting. Finally, the neighbour left.
You went to back to your "hidden feast". When you are about to take another bite...
*ting tong* (the door bell rings again)
You curse under your breath and put the cake away... again. You peep again at the peep hole and this time you see the grinning face of your brother.
Dang! He loves chocolate cake. He can finish a whole cake in 10 mins. You decided to hide the cake in your room.
Brother comes in and awooooo awoooo... he tells you about his misery. Awooooo Awoooo... he tells you about the lady driver that was driving so slow in front of him on his way here. Women drivers. Bah! He says. (all the more not to share the chocolate cake with him)
He went awoooo awoooo.. and went on and on about this and that. You wonder when he's gonna stop and go home. Awoooo awooo.. and he tells you he's hungry. Awoooo awoooooo.. then he left.
You closed the door and was about to walk to your room when..
*ting tonggggggggg* (the door bell rings yet again)
*%^&&**@$^^#^#**@@%^&*$*@$%^ You cursed away. Who can it be now. You yanked the door open and there stood the love of your life. You know he loves chocolate cake too. You know he can finish the cake just as fast as your brother.
You asked if he would like to go out to eat. You took your purse quickly and went out with him. You went dining and dancing the night away. You came home late and flop onto your bed and slept away.
When you finally awake, you remembered your chocolate cake. You went over to where you left it and...
bummer... a whole battalion of ants are on it. *LOL* There goes your chocolate cake.
Selfish little idiot. Why didn't you share in the first place. Why can't you ask your neighbour in and have some tea and cake. Why can't you cut a big piece for your brother when he came by. Why can't you enjoy the cake with the love of your life.
Lesson 1 : Sharing is Caring. Selfishness will get you very happy chocolate covered ants with big smiles.
You love chocolate. You love chocolate so much that you bought yourself a big chocolate cake. A bigggggg chocolate cake it is. You cut a piece and indulge.
*ting tong* (the door bell rings)
You have chocolate all on your lips and in your mouth. You hate the break in momentum when you are indulging in your feast. You peek at the peephole. Shoot! Its the nosy neighbours next door.
You hide your cake quickly. This is my cake. I am not going to share it with some nosy neighbours.
You wipe your mouth quickly and erase any evidence of the chocolate. You open the door and awoo awoo and an exchange of pleasantries. Awooo awoooo... and a whole of lot of chatting. Finally, the neighbour left.
You went to back to your "hidden feast". When you are about to take another bite...
*ting tong* (the door bell rings again)
You curse under your breath and put the cake away... again. You peep again at the peep hole and this time you see the grinning face of your brother.
Dang! He loves chocolate cake. He can finish a whole cake in 10 mins. You decided to hide the cake in your room.
Brother comes in and awooooo awoooo... he tells you about his misery. Awooooo Awoooo... he tells you about the lady driver that was driving so slow in front of him on his way here. Women drivers. Bah! He says. (all the more not to share the chocolate cake with him)
He went awoooo awoooo.. and went on and on about this and that. You wonder when he's gonna stop and go home. Awoooo awooo.. and he tells you he's hungry. Awoooo awoooooo.. then he left.
You closed the door and was about to walk to your room when..
*ting tonggggggggg* (the door bell rings yet again)
*%^&&**@$^^#^#**@@%^&*$*@$%^ You cursed away. Who can it be now. You yanked the door open and there stood the love of your life. You know he loves chocolate cake too. You know he can finish the cake just as fast as your brother.
You asked if he would like to go out to eat. You took your purse quickly and went out with him. You went dining and dancing the night away. You came home late and flop onto your bed and slept away.
When you finally awake, you remembered your chocolate cake. You went over to where you left it and...
bummer... a whole battalion of ants are on it. *LOL* There goes your chocolate cake.
Selfish little idiot. Why didn't you share in the first place. Why can't you ask your neighbour in and have some tea and cake. Why can't you cut a big piece for your brother when he came by. Why can't you enjoy the cake with the love of your life.
Lesson 1 : Sharing is Caring. Selfishness will get you very happy chocolate covered ants with big smiles.
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